What just happened?

It went from Barbies, American Girl Dolls, and Polly Pockets to improving my skills in Dance, Piano, Violin, Acting, and Reading.

I didn't even care...

It went from stressing about the drama at Recess to making new friends in Jr. High

I was scared...

It went from being excited about a locker to deep black depression.

I almost died...

It went from finally making friends to saying goodbye to all of them all at once.

I cried...

It went from falling in love with my life and my best friend to adding a job on top of everything else.

I was stressed...

It went from one job to another and then another and everything else that you can imagine in between.  I have one year left.  

I went from carelssness to stressed in an amount of time that was clearly not long enough.  In Michael Krukow's blog called "Wanna Know How I'm Human?" there is a line that he uses that I think describes the transition from childhood to adulthood beautifully.  He says:

                         "I am stuck right now, right ont he cusp of the conclusion of my childhood and the beginning of adulthood" 

The reason that the teenage years are so stressful and awkward is because you're no longer a child but you are also not an adult yet even though the world expects you to act like you are.  If I could go back to the time when it was expected of me to play barbies.  When every day at school was a party because the teachers were funny and all the activities were fun honestly I can say I think I would only do that for one last day.  I would do it one more time just so that I could say goodbye.  I grew up so quickly that I didn't really notice.  I didn't really get to say goodbye.  But there is so much in the future that I look forward to.  I honestly look forward to working because I get to choose everything.  I get to choose where I work and I get to make a whole new set of friends and I get to go on vacations.  I get to get married and raise kids and be happy.  Yes, I will be stressed but let's be honest stress is real.  I was stressed when I was a kid whenever my mom grounded me, I was stressed in elementary school when that guy didn't ask me out.  I was stressed in Junior High when I didn't have friends and wasn't doing as good in school as everyone else.  I'm stressed now with relationship shiz and I will most likely be stressed in the future.  People often don't want to grow up because they say it's just so stressful.  Everyone is stressed always.  It's inevitable; you can't escape it and the stress is always going to be real to you even if someone else thinks it's dumb.  So, I say take that stress and turn it into something colorful like those crayons we tell ourself life took away...

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